Here is a look at my Spring / Summer altar setup! I hope you enjoy!
My partner and I had a baby. What a whirlwind.
I didn’t want to talk about my pregnancy because it had been so rough. My morning sickness was relentless, day and night. Old back, hip, and knee injuries flared up with a vengeance. My mood was prickly but not terrible, thank goodness. And with all that, the baby was always in good health, which made me so, so happy. But because of other risk factors concerning me (my weight and my age), we decided to be induced right before the 40-week date.
My midwife (who was amazing), advised me to opt for a vaginal birth with c-section being the absolute last resort. I agreed to give it my all but also released all expectations, knowing that they could change based on reactions to the medicine they would give me for the induction.
On Sunday, February 23 at 8 pm, I went in to get induced and it was the wildest, terrifying, grueling, most rewarding experience of my life.
I took a pill, which did not sit well with baby and caused a major panic when nurses swarmed my room, telling me to remain calm, IV fluids dripping, an oxygen mask over my face, me asking, “Why?” and getting “Stay calm and breathe deep” as the only answer…apparently the pill they had given me to start the induction had caused the baby’s heart rate to drop, which sent all the nurses rushing in.
We scrapped that and tried a second medicine. TWICE. Nothing had been changing. I was hoping to dilate comfortably but nothing was happening. We tried a THIRD medicine and around halfway through the second round of medicine #3, I had to make a choice. A c-section was on the table now. I was exhausted but most of all, I was worried about my baby. Were all these medicines causing him trauma? Was my stress of not dilating stressing him? He was painfully in my pelvis, in position to come out but my body was not opening, which made me upset.
After a short chat with the on-call midwife that Tuesday night (remember I had already been there since Sunday night), we decided to go for a c-section. That’s when the real panic set in. I will save that for another post because it was traumatic as hell and I am still trying to shake those memories away… After all that trauma, my son arrived healthy, happy, and in great shape. Thank you, Goddess.
We were in a bubble at the hospital for a full week and by the time we arrived home, it felt like we had come home to another world. I was advised to stay home for the first two weeks of our release because of the emergency c-section, so it was already feeling like quarantine. Now that the two weeks of healing are up, I’m still having to stay home and I’m antsy as hell. I think my baby can feel it, too. We have ventured outside in short bursts but I’m taking this as a blessing in disguise. My son and I can bond more, we can cozy up more, we can connect even more, and for that, I’m grateful.
You’ve seen it in my September Vibes video and I’m happy to say I’m the proud owner of the Tessera Oracle! I had started seeing photos of it on IG for a while and in various groups and I knew I had to have it! I caught it after the Kickstarter had already ended (of course), but little did I know it was going to be for sale after all!
I had a great time doing an interview with it in the same way I conduct all of my divination interviews. Check it out!
If you don’t already know, I do daily cards on my Instagram as well! Use the monthly and the daily to check-in and see how things are going!
I’ve had The Marigold Tarot for a little while now and I’m just now sitting down to fully enjoy it. Oh, what an amazing deck it is, too! If you’re familiar with the Shitty Horoscopes series, you know this art and artist, Amrit Brar. She’s wonderful and The Marigold Tarot is pretty wonderful too. Let’s see what it has to say!
Trying something a little different here at Balance These Scales: monthly readings! I’m still getting the hang of this so you might see some things changing here and there. In the mean time, enjoy!
She’s here! The Ethereal Visions Illuminated Tarot deck is in my hands and I am absolutely in love! It was love at first sight with this deck, and now, with the cards in my hands, I fall more and more in love with them every day. It’s such a special deck created by amazing people and it’s always such a joy to read with. Check it out!